Comments: Left the edit to go back to Series 1, Episodes 1-3, because I’m on the verge of publishing them and want them to be as free from errors as possible.
Lots going on. The usual life stuff, but now that I’m moving into publishing/marketing the series, I am finding the lack of time to write new episodes, and to edit this series, to be a real challenge. My mental state is off. Everything I’ve written before reads horribly to me, or at least not quite right.
Kylie, my good friend and literary agent, read the start of series 2 and said she really likes it. That surprised me because I was positive, after reading it beforehand, that series 2 was a veritable pile of shit. I’ve learnt enough now to not trust this mental state, and so will continue to push forward regardless.
I can’t help but feel that this is doubt comes from an unconscious form of self-sabotage. I am on the verge of publishing and putting all my work ‘out there’. Most of my life I’ve written, and written a lot, but have stumbled at the point of finding a way to carry the stories from my computer into the real world, where other people will read them. I’m certain there is a blockage deep inside my psyche. I think the only way to get through it is to commit to publishing, no matter how I’m feeling.
So, here I go, sticking with it.